A new level of pain
Have you ever felt the sensation of having the wind knocked out of you? Have you ever felt empty and emotionally drained? Have you ever gone through a storm so painful that you could physically feel the heaviness of your situation? Being left with the feeling of carrying around a huge weight on your chest and in your stomach? If your answer is “yes” to any of these questions then you have or like myself, are currently experiencing the storms of life; attacks and pruning. You may feel as if you’re experiencing a new level of pain. At times you feel as if you are dying literally. In all honesty, you are! Yet it’s not physical but oh so spiritual.
God is cultivating you and during this process some parts of you will and need to die. The Bible speaks about us being pruned and why in the book of John. “He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.” (John 15:2 NIV) If you know anything about pruning plants then you know it involves removal that in turn benefits the plants. Some reasons to prune plants include shaping (by controlling or redirecting growth), and improving or sustaining health; are we not branches (plants) of the vine? God is molding and growing us through our trials. He is trying to pull some things out of us that are stunting our growth and ultimately hindering our walk with him. Choosing to walk with him brings attacks from the enemy because he doesn’t want you to succeed, but how bad do you want success in our father?
Personally speaking, I know God is dealing with my trust and dependency issues by causing me to lean and depend solely on Him. He wants to see my faithfulness and that I will allow myself to trust him which will in turn allow me to trust people. During my season of pruning I am learning to put my commitments to God over my emotions. Even with the world falling apart around me, God still expects me to work, focus, pray and praise. If we are not growing during our season of pain it’s because we are focused solely on ourselves and the overwhelming sensations of dying. This is a critical time in your life so choose to fight through it, yet allow more fruit to grow. Read, write, create, pray, dance, learn, find a new interest, do something that brings you joy even if it’s only for a moment. Don’t allow yourself to shrink, don’t give up, speak God’s promises over yourself and grow to the new level God is taking you because there is life in that place.